In the past few weeks, I have surrendered daily–sometimes hourly–to the thought, that perhaps our infertility struggle and recent loss may mean that a child who needs a home and a Mama and Daddy may get that. Our lack of biological children may be the very chance waiting children need, in order to get a forever home.
I wrote my OB a note this past weekend, telling her I feel completely powerless when it comes to adding to our family. Powerless to be able to get pregnant right now, powerless to guarantee there won’t be another loss, powerless to start the adoption process due to life circumstances. “And yet, is it not in the impossible that God does the miraculous!?” I wrote. As much as my heart hurts right now, as hopeless and powerless as I feel, I believe that with all my heart.
This is not the first time God has stripped me of any control over my circumstances. And each time He has completely taken all control out of my hands, I have experienced the wonder that it was in order to more powerfully show His glory.
I believe He will do that again. I believe that all the pain I’ve come through in life – -including the recent years of loss and difficulty — is for a powerful purpose. Somehow, someway, a large part of that purpose includes children who need a mom and dad and a safe home. Our forever kids.
In the end, our home will be full of children and we will only be able to stand and give testimony that “God has done this!”
God drove that point home to me, again, full and completely with today’s Focus on the Family broadcast.
If you struggle with infertility – -and especially have had the pain of losing babies in your journey – - this is the broadcast to listen to!
If you can’t have your own baby and long to adopt, but life circumstances seems to indicate adoption is an impossibilit – - this is the broadcast to listen to!
Don’t miss it. I promise you, it is worth the time it will take to hear this woman’s story. . .
